Quick post. I’ve decided to finally do something I’ve been wanting to
do for years.
I’m going to the HP Lovecraft
Film Festival. specifically the one in October in Portland, Oregon.
I’ve been seriously thinking about it for a few weeks, and today I was
looking at flights and hotels to put a budget together, and I found a
decent flight in the time frame I wanted. So I took the eldritch plunge
and booked the flight, and reserved a hotel room in the hotel giving
the fest a good rate. Yay me, yay travelings. Oh dear gods, I’m going to
Yeah, social anxiety is calling out rather loud. Which i expected. I hope
it settles down though. But it will probably be like my trip to New York,
where I went from anxious to excited and back again. We’ll see.
So yeah, traveling to the Northwest. Besides the HPLFF, I’m not doing
much else. Going to Powells books before the Fest is about it. Because
well, I’m in Portland. I’ll post more details as I find them out, or make
them up. *crazy tentacles flails of joy and worry*
I’ve decided that I’m going to stop cross-posting between Livejournal and this blog for the most part. The CLI post to WordPress hasn’t been working. So I’m going to leave my rambles to LJ, and post stuff about computer projects, Cthulhu, or other things to here. You can find the Daily Rambles in the Eldritch Links to the right. I’m also going to try to post there more than once or twice a week, like I used to. We’ll see how it goes. *waves a tentacle*
Had a good night’s sleep, full of strange
dreams about a city that I dream about on a regular basis. Not sure what it’s
based on, but it seems the same every time it shows up. This time I was
able to cut through traffic and get back to DFW because I was able to
slip through spacetime. (I blame that bit on reading the tech details about
Alastair Reynolds’ ‘Revelation Space’ novels). Woke up, and sadly the
cool dream didn’t carry over. Had a major league anxiety attack. Took
my happy meds, watched a movie, and generally bumped all plans back.
By the time I was up for going to the movies, I was pretty decent.
Met up with my friends, watched the third ‘The Purge’ movie. Given
the foo going on lately, I had a feeling this movie wouldn’t be much fun.
But it had some good bits, besides the political foo. Lots of violence,
lots of one liners from a few characters that were hysterical, and it ended
on a vague high note. If you liked the first 2, you’d probably like this
Headed home, picked up packages, (Yay finally got my copy of ‘Swords v
Cthulhu’). Headed back out a little later to have dinner with some
other friends, celebrating a spawning day. Went to a Greek/Mediterranean
place, very tasty. We ate foods, chitchatted, caught up. Definitely
will go back there. Took care of some other stuff, and came home. Fired
up ‘Prometheus’ because I needed some fluff. Scientists making horrible
decisions always makes me feel better.
So yeah, in a better place than 24 hours ago. Plan for tonight is probably
to watch movies and veg. Later I’ll dig into my new, shiny book.
Tomorrow I have more errands to run, laundry to do, and will probably
just be chill. Then another week of work, with a series of things I need
to focus on. Nothing bad, just adjusting priorities. No real plans for
the week besides work. So for that, I’m going to call this a post.
Not feeling all that independent today. Stayed up late last night reading
a fancy dead tree Mythos novel I got recently. Slept oddly, dreams that
made me very confused when I woke up. Didn’t really get out of bed til
around noon. Did get messages from the Musketeers, they’re safely in
I really don’t want to leave Château Innsmouth today. So I’m just going to
hang out at home. Finishing up the great rip fest of the dvds I got.
I’m feeling anxious and out of sorts. I may go read, or put on a movie,
I don’t know. What ever I do, I’ll try to be chill. Tentacles and chill,
how to spend a day off. Ok, that’s enough rambling.
Well Sunday was pretty decent. I got up around the usual time, bummed
around Château Innsmouth for a while. Headed out to hang out with
friends, with a side trip to the flagship Half Price Books in Dallas.
Oh lord, I went nuts, a ton of DVDs and blurays, and a number of books
for the Mythos collection. I really need to get a couple of new bookcases.
before my collection explodes. My credit card may be crying.
Went up to hang out with P and J
Watched the 2nd and 3rd Poltergeist flicks, which I haven’t seen since
I was a kid. Not great, but not bad. I remember them being much worse.
Then, because we’ve inflicted a ton of bad movies on the P
he picked ‘Mumford’ which was a very odd and quirky flick about a therapist
in a town in major need of therapy. So not my kind of flick, but it had
some funny moments, and it ended on a good note. By then I was tired
and kind of icky feeling. So I took off. Was glad to hang out with
Also heard from my globe trotting musketeers. It seems Logan International
is of the suck, and people in Boston are weird. They’re on their way to
Iceland for another stop, then off to Scotland, Mild envy. But honestly,
if I was with them I’d probably be driven to jump ship and hightail it to
the British Museum for a week. And I’d miss all the other fun.
Drove home, put in one of my new purchases…and found out I’d already
seen it (and wasn’t terribly impressed by it). Giving it another try, since
I did spend money on it. Also ripping the other purchases for my future
watching. Probably going to stay up late tonight, I’m kind of jittery.
I’ve also decided to give myself a mulligan on tomorrow. I need to make
a store run for missing things, and return the Redbox I got yesterday (and
forgot to return today). Besides that, it could be books, it could be
movies, I may even go out to the movies or out to somewhere nice for dinner.
I don’t know, I’m just going to take it as it comes.
So that’s about it for Sunday’s braindump. Going to make a snack, and
keep on keeping on. Take care.
It’s the weekend again, yay! It’s a three day weekend, double yay!
Friday night was taking the Musketeers out to dinner before they leave town
for a long European vacation. *envy* Oh well, one of these lifetimes
I’ll make it over the Pond. Woke up this morning, ran some errands,
came home. Got my new multi-region Blu Ray player, set it up, and am
now watching the new bluray edition of ‘The Lurking Fear’. Besides
movies, I’m doing my usual geekery. The plan is to basically relax til
sundown, then do the laundry. Mostly though, just want to take it easy
Was a good week, pshrink visit on Wednesday to adjust my meds again. I was
doing better, but I thought there was still room for improvement. Work
is decent, home life is quiet. Really no big change other than the pshrink
Tomorrow I’ll be hanging out with some friends, possibly with a visit to the
big Half Price Books in Dallas. Monday I’m going to hermit here at
Château Innsmouth and dive into my pile of books to read. Good way to
celebrate independence i think. Then it’s back to work, with some after
hours time to make up for the day off.
So that’s this week in fox land. The next few weeks will be a little
tricky, as the above mentioned best friends will be out of town. Luckily
I have a good support network, stuff to keep me busy. I’ll be ok.
I’m tough that way. *wink* Ok, that’s enough rambling. I’ll write more
Weekend report. Saturday was some chores, and then hanging out with
Amythest and Nymaz. Took one of Amythest’s kitties to the vet, she’s
going fine. Dropped her back off at home, and we went to the movies.
Saw the new ‘Independence Day’ flick, which was fun, but not as good as
the original. The magic of the original would have been hard to recreate.
The effects were good, and the background of the movie was actually pretty
positive. Plus aliens with tentacles are always good to me.
Post the movie, we went to a local sushi buffet. Nothing out of this
world, but it was pretty tasty. We then ran a couple of errands to kill
time before the second movie…’The Shallows’.
‘The Shallows’ was your basic woman vs nature, done rather well. The
shark, while it was acting kind of outside the norm for Great Whites,
wasn’t completely off the wall like most shark movies. The actress,
Blake Lively, was good. The shark effects were really good. It was a
really good flick, and nice to show sharks as not utter demons, while
still showing them as a creature you should be afraid of. 8 or 9
fins in the water.
Came home after the movie, took forever due to construction on the highway
I didn’t notice til it was way too late. Oh well, I had Lovecraftian podcasts
to listen to so I just made the best of it. Got home, went to bed with a
book. One of the ‘Aliens’ novels that originally came out in the 90’s.
Nice bit of xenomorph fluff. Went to bed, slept, dreamed some weird
dreams, and woke up full on anxious. Tried to stay in bed, fail. Took
my meds, and I’m camping out at the Desk of Doom ™ til things settle
down, then I’ll go down and do laundry and stuff at Amythest’s as usual.
So yeah, that’s my weekend. The anxiety is starting to fade a little,
that’s good. Hope it decided to bugger off for a while. I can dream
at least. At least next weekend is a 3 day weekend. Ok, enough rambling.
Catch you all later.
I forgot, I gave up caffeine, and I’m finally starting to not feel like utter
crap. I’ve known for a while that my Code Red habit wasn’t good for my
health, but I didn’t have the willpower or immediate reasons to quit.
Then a number of messages from the multiverse came in, and I decided I
needed to quit before I had big reasons to. Plus, caffeine + anxiety is
not a good mix. Along with that, I’ve cut majorly down on sugar. It’s
been kind of rough. Last time I quit caffeine, I was in the hospital with
Stan, and well, amazing what painkilers can do. It’s been a week and change
since I stopped all together, and about 3 since I started tapering down.
I do miss it, especially getting up in the AM (and Friday night movies fests)
but I think the physical foo is over. I’ve been drinking lots of water,
which is better for me both physically and on the budget. So that’s the
addendum, I’m actually trying to be healthier. Go Me!
Not sure how long it’s been since I did one of these. Probably not long,
but here it is. At the beginning of the month I posted about going to
the pshrink to up my meds. I go back next week, and I’m going to say
that while it’s helped, it’s not helped as much as I’d want. Maybe another
dose up, as I am doing better. Or maybe a different med will be the
answer. I don’t know, but I’m willing to try. And that’s a big change
from last year, hell, from a couple of months ago.
Work is good. Figured out why I was anxious at the job, even though I’m
working with some very cool people, and nothing has felt like the stressors
of the Shoggoth Pit. But I still find meetings and dealing with the boss
as a cause of anxiety, because for years I’m used to having bosses who
yelled, who enjoyed winding me up, who had no clue how to handle people.
I now have a boss who’s helpful, and can say ‘you did this incorrectly,
here’s what you should have done’ without making it a chances to yank my
chain. I just need to get used to it, and it’s probably going to take
a while longer. But I see that I can, and why I feel the way I do, and
with that, I can change things.
Personal life is good. Been spending a lot of time buried in books.
Friends are good, friends are great. Even if I haven’t been quite the
social butterfly. Château Innsmouth is as it usually is. Most everything
is pretty ok. Well it’s overly warm, and my internet has issues, but
nothing I can’t handle.
That’s pretty much Vulpine’s life here at Château Innsmouth. Hoping it
stays that way. Catch you all later, hopefully with a stable internet
Well Saturday has been alright. Woke up after a weird dream about buying
and running a school. Futzed around the Château Innsmouth, maintenance
never showed. *sigh* Watched 1.5 Amityville Horror flicks, then headed
up to visit some friends. Who’s AC was out, ick. Got to finally watch
‘The Witch’ with subtitles, which cleared up some dialog bits, but it
seems I grokked the general Puritan theology and 17th century English.
Also watched the original ‘Poltergeist’, always a fun flick. But after
that flick I was pretty much a puddle, so I headed home with the AC on
Got Taco Bell for dinner, finished watching the .5 of the 2nd Amityville
movie. Got mail after the sun went down, which including my replacement
NecronomiPod. It’s currently running through all the updates. And boy
is there a lot of them. Also watching ‘Amityville 3D’ which is one of my
Probably going to make it a fairly early night of bed and book, getting
overheated will do that to a fox. Plus I have a ton of Mythos and Ancient
History to read. Tomorrow is keeping up the ghostness, the plan is to go
see ‘The Conjuring 2’ with Amythest. It’s been a ghostly weekend I guess.
Catch you all later, unless the spooks catch me first.